'Do you have someone you can talk to?'

I am worried about an infestation of harlequin ladybirds again this year, and about the week's deadlines. In the car recently my dad asked me if I had anyone I could talk to, if my friends are superficial. I was on my period. I want to die. I don't really but I want to curl up and forget everything I have ever done or said. Everything is so embarrassing and upsetting.

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Some things last a long time.

I am freezing and in bed with a mug of Darjeeling as the suns sets at 7:42pm and I am thinking about all of the things that I have neglected this weekend. I really want to go to the zoo more desperately than I have ever wanted anything. I can't get out of my many ruts. I would like some more alcohol. Screw that, I need some more alcohol. I think I might ignore my ever-expanding To Do list and watch The Virgin Suicides. I feel really mellow and sad all of the time at the moment. The drawing is of Crystal Renn. Have a good week, putas. x
SOTD: Anthony & The Johnsons- Some Things Last A Long Time
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It Flew

I spent all morning thinking about sex. I drew this for my mum for Mother's Day because I am skint. I was thinking of writing but then I remembered my brain-dead state. I feel like I've been in a coma for seventeen years. I feel like I have flu in my mind. Corrupted tinged imperfect silence, green. Bile-coloured silence.

With a Vengeance

Do I talk about where this vengeance is rooted, its ugly cause? No. Do I mention the unmentionable, my heart-breaking hiatus? No. (Maybe I should. Otherwise this is a bit too void of meaning.) While you wait for me to make up my mind, listen to this track by The Wave Pictures and enjoy my drawing of some whiskey. Hashtag life problems. I call this piece 'WHAT DRINKING PROBLEM?' I'm just finished reading Sylvia Plath's only novel 'The Bell Jar' and I adore it. I recommend it if you don't find the documenting of suicide attempts upsetting. The last few months of my life have been lost to some fatuous forgettable romance. I leave you with a quote by Gilbert and George, which I came across watching The Culture Show on iplayer.

“But who wants to be happy?
We want to affect, create an affect.
If we’re just lying on the beach with gin and tonics we’re not going to change anything.”
SOTD: The Wave Pictures- It Tastes Like Poison
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